Games

The week begins with games ending the weekend
And contact from an ex who thinks the door is still open
Was it not closed the other day, was the message unclear
Looking back, she may be alone now, her biggest fear

Games oh how I hate games, those who play them
What a shame
Life is so simple, yet games are so lame
Why play them with me, I didn't change my name
to the the guy who likes to play games
Go with the flow, games are insane

Either you like me or don't
So why play them, want me to front?
I can play them too
but don't like the stunts
played them before but once is enough...

So come to me with something real and true
I am up to getting to know the real you
games are played
when you don't know who you are
take some time and figure that out
then maybe you can call me, give me a shout

This is a message to who wants to hear it'
We've all lived it and some accept it
Take control and don't take it
leave it at the door or someone will always play it.

Tennis Shoe Pimps

Hey little girl, you 12 yet?
I need a new pair of shoes, a hat, a new closet
Hey little girl, wanna sell sex?
I'll give 25 percent
Look at that new purse
all you have to do is get wet.

Underage hooking reaches new levels
Just for money, not survival
Grade 8 sees new arrivals
Little boy pimps are kings
then come the rivals

Rubber bands in their pockets
More money than you and me
12 year old tennis shoe pimps
We're older, some of us have jealousy
Get that out your head
What happened to society
Ghetto nation of mediocrity
What happened to you? I know about me!

Under the stair case, it's a free period
Recess blow job, are you fucking serious?
At that age, sex should be mysterious
they will all grow up delirious
Sex will lose it's deliciousness
Girls living as eternal mistresses

Eternal Monster

He's a monster, he's a killer, he knows he's wrong
Don't even remember what went on
He's got a switch that clicks in his head
Next day
So many turn up dead

He's a murderer, he craves the action
internal satisfaction
eventual police inaction
the media has an attraction
society lacks passion, no morals to stop it
stop listening about it
new story on the news
everything else diffused
new 15 minutes given
everybody smitten, little sickened
covered eyes, love of death
is a given

It burns his blood after a few days of sleep
getting up, blood is food
like his own personal meat
Who could do this
He can and does, a man he once was
now the silhouette of a man
no one sees him, hides behind his hands
yet happy to have fans
waiting for his last stand

Stands tall, never gets caught
Oh such a wonderful idea
nice thought, it's true
walking in your neighborhood
your neighbor, your friend
the deaths continue
and will never end.

25 Random Things

I love hip hop culture, rap music and rhymes
Order a gin and tonic I'll give you some time
Puff puff pass, won't miss my turn in line
I love to write rhymes and poetry... give me a topic, I'll write a few lines
Dirty mind?
Always and with pleasure, The more sex the better!
I believe in me, don't forget it just get it
I've grown in the last year, better believe it

I love my job and the people I work with...
I love to PARTY and will be the last one to go to bed
Not traveling to Jamrock would be a sin
I am going to Amsterdam with my best friend
I am always right, you'll see...Until the end
If you lie to me you've just lost a friend
I can dance, yes I can dance and love it, come and join in

I am an only child... but well raised, not spoiled...
I spend to much time in front of my PC
I was married and divorced by the age of 24
My parents are still married and I love them for it, they made me!
I sleep on the couch all the time, dressed
bought a new bed too...
I like my cigarettes and my coffee, without, you can't talk to
Not into sports... like none at all... not for me but maybe for you
I can freestyle, better with a buzz, I tell you it's true
I stuck my tongue on metal when I was younger
After my parents told me not to
I have three tattoos, had several piercing but removed
I love animals but don't have any
Don't need any, cuz I got me.

That Girl.

Life is a funny thing as you learn about yourself and others
Thoughts, decisions and situations that make us who we are
Learn about and love those around you, get to know each other
Rather spend my time at home than in a bar

I'll have a drink with you, but jah is endless
Either way, at the end of the night, conversation will be mindless.
Get to know, don't lie, paid back in kindness
There is that one girl, she is the finest

Unreachable but still a pleasure
Is it hot in here or do I have a fever
Come for a drink or let's go for dinner
They come, they go but some are remembered.

Some are forgotten and some are never known
Chances should be taken, limits left behind
One life to live, enjoy what you have left of time
Looking at her, was that a sign?

I guess I may never know or should I jump at the chance
Was that a “I want you to baby!” type of glance?
Or just an over analyzation on my part
Let's rewind a minute and begin from the start.

Writing is my art and I like Hip Hop
Does that interest you or you don't care?
Should I keep going now or should I just stop?
Or take some time to flip and flop?

Bah, I'll just keep moving and time will be the answer
damn it's still hot in here, just look at her!
Take her clothes off and make sweet love to her
Damn this fantasy, just want to get with her.

Not just the sex but the mind is so attractive
I'm so open, I'm like an emotional laxative
I'm a giver, I got lots to give
And like I said before, you got one life to live

I NEED A SMOKE!!

I've been sitting here for hours and now I need a smoke
Should I really have another, feel I'm gonna choke
Gotta get up from here to get them
But it's such a long walk down 20 some odd stairs
damn these moments of laziness aren't always fair

Writing this I want to get up to get the pack
But writing this is also very intriguing
Because I am writing down my feelings
Of addiction to many parts of my being

I took a minute to help a friend with a survey
the topic is of no matter
Because this is about a cigarette
Remember now, nothing else matters

This is the the moment many of us have had in our little heads
The ongoing debate that you want it but it will see you dead
But the craving always wins when it starts playing with your head
Do you remember what the surgeon general once said?

I have a recollection of terms and banners
but don't forget, nothing else matters
I can taste it now, I think I will get up
give me a minute until I come back and light it up

So I came back and it's now lit
Smoking it is making me calmer
And the TV is calling me after hours or being here
So off I go to watch a show and listen to a silent cheer.

February 9th

Today is a day which saw different events in my life
One was the birthday of an ex, also the date on separation papers from an ex wife
Happy birthday to her then, but now it's another life
Era's come and go until the next event, who knows
It's also the last big date to surpass in the quest of moving on

Where am I moving, that has yet to be determined
Well it's more of a metaphor found within my mind
sometimes find myself waiting for a sign
But now realize I am one of kind

Tomorrow will be sort of a new beginning
Now that my head and the world seem to have stopped spinning
Not sure when, but I will one day start winning
But for now I will just be willing
and maybe do a little sinning

I used to call myself Dopey when I was younger
Now it's Mindflo, I found a new hunger
Hungry for words to get my thoughts out
Instead of running away, cop out
Life is a fight, like a boxing bout
Keep listening, it'll one day come out my mouth

So all this to say tomorrow is new
Throw the old out, am I one flew or just Cuckoo?
You tell me I'd like to know what you knew
Could be about me or even you.

Soup of the day!

So let's have a conversation, you choose the subject
Subject chosen and built on
Until it's too much for one party or the other
How funny people are when they see who's there

Testing me or testing yourself, I think you've been tested
I pass it all, keep smiling cuz time I invested
Is that too much for you to handle, it's just a conversation
when you said what you did, what did you think would happen?

I keep smiling and then comes out a laugh
People get things confused, of me they know only half
I said words but come on, didn't really mean that...
Expectations, I have none, life is all about having a little fun

I'm just coasting in this time of my life until I reach the next chapter
Like a book, you keep reading and want to turn the pages faster
Light flirting, chats and a bit of fun continues
Doesn't mean that it determines what's on the menu
that's what you think, should I even continue?

Hysterical laugh to those around me
Won't hide my sentiments, those are them exactly
Why beat around the bush, even better hide behind that tree
This is who I am, just learn to know me

Coming on a little strong, chances don't always come twice
Now you acting like one of the three blind mice
As an MC, I could spit this on the mic
But the paper and pen is what I use
Imagine my voice, while I am out of sight

Should I say this? Well, I am always right...
Things seem to happen as I thought might
You can come and argue or start a fight
In the end you'll come back and say.... you're right!!

LOL, I speak what I know is the truth
Like when I tell that girl, hey you're cute
One minute too fast with my words, shoot
Next time i'll do the same
I hear “you never learn!” coming from you...
In the end I am growing like I grew.

So what am I saying here today?
I am speaking thoughts I've had
like on the menu, I am the soup of the day
Until next time, this is what I have to say.

Work in progress Vol 4: The Mindflo Boner Experiment.

This all started in April of last year when my heart was broken
The day that those last words were spoken
Friends by my side with a shoulder to cry on and a helping hand
Trying to pick me up so I could once again stand
10 months it took to see today, man oh man

He was there to help, then his turn came to be broken
His life shattered in a snap
Taking on new women was his plan
Too many to count on both hands
I keep saying “take your time man!”

I took another path to greatness called self
Not losing myself again to be put on a shelf
No abundance of women, just waiting for a good one
Too many around will break you, even if you're having fun
Take time for you, stop jumping the gun
I met a rasta who told me “She soon come”

That she will, but his path is killing him
He gets attacked with anxiety, I remember the days...
He falls down stairs, I tell him change your ways...
He's in month 3, when will he see a better day?
The day will come when he regains focus
Not of pussy but of self
that's the day he will wake up and feel well
and stop saying, why did she do this, what the hell?

Life is short and lessons are learned
We all have our ways and paths less traveled
My mind flows like a river to cipher thoughts
While his boner gets wet and he feels all caught
Caught in himself and unable to move on
Remember buddy, take time for you
and she soon come.

A new Realization

Speaking to a new friend I found a new scar
My inability to trust
Words are spoken and I ask myself is this the truth
I must return to the openness of my youth
I must leave a crack in the door
if I want to be able to live and explore
But this proves difficult because of before.

Experiences come to make you who you are
Some take the shape of a wound, a scar
New beginnings affected by past war's
What for, that remains to be seen
So I can figure out what all this means.

I woke up this morning and looked at my surroundings
All this is mine for once
A feeling of self worth? Or just happiness?
It's not lonely anymore for now, I feel finesse
not the past sadness following an emotional mess.
Is this a passing score to life's test?

Questions keep coming, some remain unanswered
The quest continues to find reason
I can't wait for the change of season, Spring, summer and fall
Will I spring up to take another fall
or just continue to stand tall
or see more days where I wish I had padded walls?
Ha ha ha, what a funny mental picture
as I continue to write this type of literature
that will be read now and in the future

Work in progress volume 2: Supreme Mathematics?

Wisdom is what you gain following the destruction of what you built and then begins the cipher (2008)
The wisdom gained from the destruction is rebirth and time to rebulid. (2009)
Numbers having meaning is out of this world, does it really matter?
Meaning is what we look for and can't find but we continue until....
We find it or at least think we did, take a good look, who are we kidding?
Just live and make your own way, your time is here and
now, today!

A work in progress volume one: Ninth life in 09 at 29

I am on a journey to something I've never done
Where today is the day cuz tomorrow hasn't begun
Coming along for the ride, let's have some fun
This life is here and short, there's only one
So take it by the balls and get it done

Taking no prisoners, I am not one
I walk the road to reach a new level
if you want, you're welcome to come
forget what you know, it's little
live your life, I live mine in the middle.

Black hoody rap playin from the speakers
On my way out, nice white sneakers
Close the door on all those cheaters
2009 is the year, things look clearer
life is good, never been freeer
life is meant to be lived
I'm a real beleiver

2008 with the 8 means infinity
many things ended during the year
2009 is my 9th life for new clarity
I was an infant, a child then a teen
Listen and you`ll see what I mean
Then a young adult plus two loves
Six lives used so far
moments of lost sanity
and now this new time of independance
the 9th life begins and dreams are most important

Work in progress Vol 3

I continue to beat the battle that needs to be won.
Climbing a hill with no peak
Not stopping, not even to speak
Will I see the end, it's near, it approaches in the horizon

What do I do of my day? Whatever feels right at the moment
I am myself and live with self content
29 years so far, oh my, they came and went
I learned to just live for now, the most important moment.

I feel euphoric in this world filled with static
talking to others, they appear manic, sometimes tragic
I'm waiting for that moment when I feel that magic...
... again like other times before
as a human, we always want more, not even knowing
what's in store.

So we live our lives with goals and gain memories
Friends, loved ones, we still want more
Trying to keep up with others what for
Do you really need that sport car at the door
Or that new kitchen floor?
Or useless material that will see the growing landfill
Who cares for the future, we no longer feel
and sometimes can't deal

I'm talking about what? I don't really know
it's just making it to the page
my mind is running, it's like a coming of age
Not in the mafia, but consider me made
While others live to eventually fade

Fade to make it to the grave, it's written
I'm now shy cuz I've been twice bitten
Maybe because I am easily smitten
my ninth life just like a kitten
What am I saying, who am I kidding?
So until the next volume take care
You may be realizing that life ain't fair
Just keep going and remember...
you will someday get there.